Have you ever found yourself thinking that you are not good enough? That your ideas are not good enough? Maybe you think that there are so many artists who are better than you? Have you ever thought: “How am I supposed to achieve my dream?” Welcome to my world. I have had these kind of thoughts so many times that I have lost count. But there is a way how to start believing in yourself more.
I remember when I started to draw and paint again on 2010. Back then I had this perfect image on my mind how I wanted everything to be. Which also included my artistic skills and abilities. I wanted to be good and professional quickly. Unfortunately that meant only one thing, that I didn’t have patience.
So I drew and painted a lot but many times I got mad and frustrated because things didn’t go the way I wanted. So I just threw my pencils and oil colors in the corner. Few days later, something inside of me kept telling me ” Try again, don’t give up. Eventually you will achieve your goals”.
I had a really hard time in my life back then. I studied in the university business and marketing but something inside of me kept telling me that this is not the right thing. And besides that I had an anxiety which made it quite impossible to even go to school. Eventually on the 3rd year I took the risk and decided to quit.
There were so many people around me who didn’t understand why I made that kind of choice. When I told them that I want to be an artist and make the living with my art, then many of them raised their eyebrows and gave me the weird look, like I’m some kind of freak. They told me that its impossible to make money by selling your art. That this can only be my hobby, nothing more. Many even stopped being my friend. But that was totally fine with me.
To be honest, I was really scared. Why? Because I didn’t know how to achieve my dream. And the uncertainty about the future made me worry a lot. Eventually I understood that worrying about everything doesn’t help at all. In fact it only makes things worse. So I decided to take 1 day at a time. As I started to be more positive, I noticed that everything started to get better. My mindset was more positive and I didn’t throw my art supplies to the corner anymore. In fact, I started to get more inspiration and ideas about what to draw and paint.
I spent hours watching different art tutorials on Youtube. I did everything that I could to be better than I was the day before. I invested in myself.
Today I’m really grateful that I didn’t give up.
So if you are facing some difficult times and you want to give up, then please don’t! Because then you might regret later and think: ” What could have been if… “
You will have to face your deepest fears and tell yourself that: “I am good enough!” You have to believe in yourself! Surround yourself with people who like same things as you. There is a quote that I like:
“You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step”- Dr. Martin Luther King
So just take the first step. And one day you will realize that all these little steps helped you to achieve your dream.
Have you experienced something similar? Maybe you can even share some tips.